jots and tiddles
"Everybody thinks of changing humanity, nobody thinks of changing himself." ~Leo Tolstoy
Sunday, March 18, 2012
battle cry (spoken word)
"I am not a weak-willed woman,
I am a fierce & ferocious woman warrior of God, my King!
I reject the lies & manipulations of the enemy,
I refuse to accept or believe the sly snake's whispers
that I'm worthless, helpless, useless,
forgotten, or abandoned.
See, Christ already paid the price of my sins,
so I'll throw off the harness,
put down the chains of the enemy that he's tricked me into picking up & whipping myself into submissive penance.
The enemy, he wants to crack me, distract me,
erase me, get me to place myself on the bench, out of the game,
away from declaring the Glorious Name of the One who has Saved me!
I say no to his games & throw him down as I turn to the One who is
Higher, Greater, Bigger, Stronger,
Eternal, More Glorious, Magnificent, & Worthy.
The One who calls me
Beloved, Beautiful,
Redeemed, & Radical.
I will take up His yoke because His burden is light,
and fight for His Light to release the chains of the others like me who are stuck in their guilt & shame with the freedom that there is no condemnation for those believing in Christ Jesus our Lord.
I declare His Name on the mountaintops,
in the valleys of complacency,
in a world that's gone to sleep, believing "it's all about me."
I will follow His Name anywhere, whatever battle & fight lies before me,
because the things of this world are empty,
like the promises of fulfillment from a pill, a person, a purchase, an image, or any other created thing you can turn to to numb out the pain & disappointment of this life,
like chaff, it will all...fade...to dust.
And so, I embrace the Truth & the Freedom I have in Christ,
I am not a brain-washed servant, but a gratefully freed captive,
pushing forward in the battle of life to throw off the enemy,
to free & redeem the other captives like me.
Turn your eyes to Christ,
you don't have to sit in your filth & the silt of this life,
there is someone Greater & more Tender than you've ever experienced,
One who will forgive & replace all the wrongs that you've done with His rights.
No good deeds will get you there,
every good thing you can do is like garbage, filthy rags before the King.
But He's made a way to Forgive & Redeem you,
and His Name is Jesus,the One who lived a perfect life to cover for our sins,
& took the beating & punishment we deserved so that we could be...Free.
Now accepted in Him, we are Mighty Sons & Daughters,
not yet perfected, but pushing & pressing onward & upward for the Call of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.
So I charge you to put down whatever vice you're holding or that's holding you,
and Seek answers from the One who Created All,
because those who Seek Him, Find Him, when they Seek wih all their Heart.
He is King,
He is Redeemer,
He died to Love You.
Amen."
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
the purpose of sin
gave me today, I hope you will find it encouraging!
I was wrestling with the Lord this morning, asking Him the purpose of
sin (particularly in the life of a believer), and I feel like He gave
me two clear answers:
1. to give us humble hearts of compassion for those who don't know the
Lord (and our brothers and sisters who do).
If even those of us who have been walking with the Lord for decades or
who have been dwelling in the Truth for a seemingly long time are
utterly incapable of going a day without sinning, how can we look down
on others who don't know the Truth in self-righteousness and expect
them not to sin?
The fact is, we are all human, and we will continue to sin and hurt
each other until the return of Christ. This is not a
get-out-of-jail-free card or a license to sin, but a fact that should
keep us humble, compassionate, forgiving, and repentant.
2. to make us ever-increasingly aware of our total dependance upon God
and ever-increasingly grateful for His abounding love and limitless
forgiveness.
Why would our Good, Creator God allow His children to keep sinning
against their God and hurting each other? Why doesn't He just sanctify
us instantly?
He wants us daily dependent on Him; not so that He can play
puppet-master with our lives, or demand our groveling submission, but
to give us a correct view of who He is and of who we are.
The truth is, if we were sinless upon conversion, we wouldn't need
Jesus - we'd all be our own little demi-gods without need of the
atoning work of the blood of Christ. And then, like Lucifer (and Adam
& Eve), we'd throw off the fatherhood of God and declare ourselves
righteous and holy. Our Father is wise, He knows us, and He knows what
is best for us!
The purpose of our sin is not to keep us hiding in shame and
condemnation, but to help us walk in the grateful freedom of
forgiveness, knowing that we could never modify our behavior or
control our sinful natures enough to save ourselves, yet we have the
FREE gift of life and forgiveness in Jesus Christ our Lord! What a
Mighty God we serve!
Praying for each of you, He meets us where we're at.
<3
Cindy
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
the joy of the Lord is my strength
(Eph6,Rom8,Ps96&136)
For we know that the whole creation has been groaning together in the pains of childbirth until now. And not only the creation, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies. Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. "The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly. I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep." Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus, who, though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of men. And being found in human form, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross. Therefore God has highly exalted him and bestowed on him the name that is above every name, so that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.
(Rom8,John10,Phil2)
The Lord is a warrior. The Lord is mighty in battle.
(Ex15,Ps24,Is42)
“Ah Lord GOD! behold, thou hast made the heaven and the earth by thy great power and stretched out arm, and there is nothing too difficult for thee”
(Jer32:17)
We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. "Do not be grieved, for the joy of the LORD is your strength." Weeping may last for the night, But a shout of joy comes in the morning.
(2Cor4,Neh8,Ps30)
Sunday, September 4, 2011
My Hope is in the Lord!
"Wait for the Lord, be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!" ~Psalm 27:14
"The Lord tests the righteous." ~Psalm 11:5
"The trials that come from God are sent to prove and strengthen our graces and immediately illustrate the power of divine grace, to test the genuineness of our virtues and to add to their energy." ~Spurgeon
"Though He slay me, I will hope in Him; yet I will argue my ways to His face." ~Job 13:15
"We rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us." ~Romans 5:3-5
"All discipline seems painful rather than pleasant, but later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it." ~Hebrews 12:11
"The Lord will fight for you, and you have only to be silent." ~Exodus 14:14
"In ALL circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one, and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God, praying at ALL times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication." ~Ephesians 15-18
"Hope in God, for I shall again praise Him, my Salvation and my God." ~Psalm 42:5
Thursday, July 14, 2011
O for Grace, to Trust Him More
"If you make an altar of stone for Me, you shall not build it of cut stones, for if you wield your tool on it, you will profane it." ~Exodus 20:25
I ran across this verse a few months ago, and it struck me - and I read it again this morning, exactly at the time needed most.
This life - it's not about me.
I forget that so often, on a daily basis. I'm so guilty of everyday getting so caught up in my own stresses and worries that I end up neglecting my relationships to people I love so dearly, bogged down with the weight of all I think I have to do, all alone, all on my own. We have grown up in this society that tells us we are to be self-sufficient, independent - don't be a bother, don't ever need anyone, you should be able to do it all on your own merit. Where is that in the Bible?? We are prideful creatures, all of us. We have lost the sense of what true community is - of giving, serving, and loving on one another in such a way that it's not a surprise when one friend meets the needs of another. Witnessing this kind of selfless love in the past months has been the most amazing blessing, and such an indescribably beautiful picture of the love that Christ has so freely given us. What have we done to deserve His grace? Nothing. What can we ever do to earn it or repay Him? Nothing. What does He expect in return? Nothing. All He wants is our hearts, our love, our joy, our good. To hold us to Himself for eternity - to give us mercy, not wrath. And He willingly chose the path of suffering, in order to hold me close - me. Imperfect, flawed, prideful, sinful me. That blows me away!
And yet...it's not about me.
This life that I'm living, I keep trying to earn His favor, to give back the grace He so freely gave. When I live as if I have to do things to merit His love, I'm nullifying the cross and His free gift of life and salvation. His heart rejoices in my obedience, but my spiritual salvation is not dependent upon it. And that's exactly what He's showing me - it's not about me. It's not about what I can do, what giftings and skills I have, what tasks I can do, what sacrifices I can make. This is about what God can do. He does not need me to wield my tools upon His altar, He does not need me to "save" anyone. In fact, I probably do more harm than good. Yet He invites me in, to be a witness to what Great things HE can do. He does not need me to cut or embellish the stones of His altar - but maybe He will let me stack them a little.
It's not about me. It's about God, His Kingdom, and what He can do.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6V0rgrt1nTM
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Prayer for Boldness
Ephesians 6:10-13 "Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm."
Romans 12:11 "Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord."
Psalm 37:3,5 "Trust in the Lord, and do good;
dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.
Commit your way to the Lord;
trust in him, and he will act."
Isaiah 54:4 "Fear not, for you will not be ashamed;
be not confounded, for you will not be disgraced;
for you will forget the shame of your youth,
and the reproach of your widowhood you will remember no more."
http://esv.scripturetext.com/isaiah/54.htm
Matthew 10:26-28 "“So have no fear of them, for nothing is covered that will not be revealed, or hidden that will not be known. What I tell you in the dark, say in the light, and what you hear whispered, proclaim on the housetops. And do not fear those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather fear him who can destroy both soul and body in hell."
http://www.gnpcb.org/esv/search/?q=Matt+10%3A26-33
Psalm 27:1 "The Lord is my light and my salvation;
whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the stronghold of my life;
of whom shall I be afraid?"
http://esv.scripturetext.com/psalms/27.htm
Psalm 73:25 "Whom have I in heaven but you? And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you."
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
se-curity

"Deep and lasting security, resilient hope, and sturdy rest of heart and mind can only be found vertically. You will only know the rest for which you seek when you begin to embrace the astounding reality of who you are as a child of God. If you are God's child, you are the object of the love of the Person who rules everything that there is to rule.
It's fundamentally impossible to be in a situation, location, or relationship where He is not present. It's impossible for anything or anyone to be more powerful than Him. It's impossible for anything or anyone to be wiser than Him. It's impossible for what He desires and has chosen and planned not to come to be. He rules every microbe of physical and spiritual creation. There is no rule of law that stands above Him. There is no one to whom He must answer. He is perfect in every way, existing entirely without flaw of will or character. He is the beginning and epicenter of everything that's good, loving, wise, and true. He never forgets, and He never fails to deliver on any of His promises. And Scripture says that He exercises His rule for the sake of His body, the church. (Eph. 2:22-23)
You are secure not because you have control or understanding. You are secure for one reason and one reason alone: God exists and He is your Father. He will never leave your side. He will never fail to provide. He will make good on everything He has promised. And He has the power to do so. He is Lord."
~Paul David Tripp (A Shelter in the Time of Storm)
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
snippet o' the day
"I will not drive them out from before you in one year, lest the land become desolate and the wild beasts multiply against you. Little by little I will drive them out from before you, until you have increased and possess the land." ~Exodus 23:29-30
Exodus is quickly becoming a huge favorite of mine. I used to just think of it as a history/stories, right now God is revealing so much to me through the Israelites' journey & struggles - about His character, about our/my sinful, foolish nature, about how tender and how detailed God is in caring for us, that He outlines details, specifications, rules & stipulations, because even though He is the giant Creator-God of the universe, He cares about the condition of our hearts at every moment! That's huge.
Today the Holy Spirit wowed me with these two little verses - God is going to drive out the Hivites, the Canaanites, and the Hittites to give His people the promised land. But He's not going to do it all at once, all in one fell swoop - because even though God Himself can do anything, His people are mortal, tiny, weak, far from all-powerful. So He chooses to work in a way that is best for His people; purging the enemies of God little by little, growing His children stronger and more faithful, little by little, until they can handle stewarding well the entire breadth of the promised land.
I am weak. small. sinful. frail. God knows this, He knows how much I can handle. Though my sins have already been forgiven & justified once for all by His blood, death, & sacrifice, I have not become holy, perfect, & flawless overnight; I am still a fleshly mortal living in a broken, fallen world. Because this world does not need a bunch of perfect people walking around, it needs lovers of God who are struggling well and learning to do life based on God's agenda & timing. He's working out all things in countless interwoven details and in even the most minute circumstances. Our human minds are just so limited in scope that we can't see how or what He's working - we can't even see what's behind our backs or what will happen to us in the next hour. He sees all of time, every person's story, and how they are all woven together in the most beautiful, intricate, delicate pattern!
He is working on us, each of us, day by day, little by little, with just exactly the right amount of what we can handle.
O blessed thought! He cares so much for us!

More on how God gives each of us just enough each day:
Exodus 16 (16-18)
Matthew 6:25-34
verse 34: "Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."
"He may delay because it would not be safe to give us at once what we ask: we are not ready for it. To give ere we could truly receive, would be to destroy the very heart and hope of prayer, to cease to be our Father. The delay itself may work to bring us nearer to our help, to increase the desire, perfect the prayer, and ripen the receptive condition." ~George MacDonald
Friday, April 1, 2011
patience
"I called him, but he gave no answer." ~Song of Solomon 5:6
Prayer sometimes lingers, like a petitioner at the gate, until the King comes with the blessings that she seeks. The Lord, when He as given great faith, has been known to test it by long delays. He has allowed His servants' voices to echo in their ears as if the heavens were brass. They have knocked at the golden gate, but it has remained immovable, as though it were rusted upon its hinges. Like Jeremiah, they have cried, "You have wrapped yourself with a cloud so that no prayer can pass through." In this manner true saints have continued to wait patiently without a reply, not because their prayers were not strong, nor because they were unaccepted, but because it so pleased Him who is Sovereign and who gives according to His own pleasure. If it pleases Him to test our patience, shall He not do as He wishes with His children? Beggars must not be choosers either as to time, place, or form. But we must be careful not to take delays in prayer for denials. God's postdated checks will be punctually honored; we must not allow Satan to shake our confidence in the God of truth by pointing to our unanswered prayers - they are not blown away by the wind; they are treasured in the King's archives. This is a registry in the court of heaven in which every prayer is recorded. Struggling believer, your Lord has as it were a tear-bottle in which the costly drops of your sacred grief are put away, and a book in which your holy groanings are numbered. By-and-by your case shall prevail. Can you not be content to wait a little? Will the Lord's time not be better than yours? By-and-by He will comfortably appear, to your soul's joy, and will cause you to put away the sackcloth and ashes of long waiting and put on the scarlet and fine linen of full fruition.
~C.H. Spurgeon
"Morning and Evening"
March 29 Eve
I just love it when God brings me EXACTLY what I need to hear or read, in the most incredible timing! He is so good and so faithful!
