lately, God has been teaching me the value of silence. it's not a discipline that comes easy to me, nor one that is easy to understand. don't get me wrong, being a dreamer, I often spend time in my imagination or pondering the great truths of life, but quiet prayer & personal reflection don't always come easily. maybe that's because it's hard to face reality sometimes, it's easier to live in denial with noise and muffle the truth, stifle our feelings.
this week was a good getaway, forced me to get alone with my thoughts and alone with God, and though I fought it at first, He kept pulling on my heart. thank God He is so gracious and tender and loving and patient for me to come to Him, instead of forcing me to my knees. when I got quiet in prayer, and just prayed over everyone and everything that came to my mind, He opened me up to reveal some pretty important things to me, things that were kind of obvious, but that I had been blind to. maybe He knew that I wouldn't or couldn't understand or accept them until now, so He was patient for me to become open & silent.
maybe if I took time every day for silence & prayerful reflection instead of waiting for a rare week's vacation, it wouldn't take me so long to hear what God's telling me. I aim to be so closely attuned to God's voice & will that decisions are effortless.
I am humbled.
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